Enough of This!

Sarah McGee walked purposely down the dock absently counting boats as she went, Bill told her she couldn’t miss it but…she stopped, this had to be it. She took a deep breath and climbed the steps and stepped onto the yacht. There was no one about and she strolled around the deck not quite sure where to go.

Kyle heard footsteps on the deck and came up to investigate, “Mrs. McGee?”

“Oh Kyle, I was beginning to think no one was home, is my son here?”

“Yes ma’am he’s asleep, want me to get him?”

“No, lead me to him.” She squared her shoulders.

It was eleven thirty on Sunday morning, sometime in the night Kyle had put Travis to bed after he passed out on the sofa. He’d awakened once and turned over and gone back to sleep.

Sarah stood in the doorway to his bedroom having a look at him before she approached the bed. She was absolutely disgusted with him. Bill had informed her about his drinking and the way he’d behaved since he arrived in Sydney to bring him home. She pushed down the desire to go and shake him awake and walked over to the bed and sat on the side. It hurt her to see him like this.

She touched his shoulder, “Travis, Travis wake up.”

Travis jerked awake turning a bleary eye towards his mother, blinked a couple of times and pulled himself upright in bed, “Mum, what are you doing here?”

“I’ve come to bring you home.”

Travis fell back on the pillows, “I’m not ready, not fit to go home.”

“You aren’t fit to go anywhere, look at you. You look like you did before you checked into that clinic. I’m not having it Travis. You are not going to wallow in self pity and drink your life away. Now get up, get showered and dressed.”

Travis looked at her, “I’m not a kid Mum, I need time to work some things out.”

“You aren’t working anything out, you’re laying up here drinking while your Dad and Jimmy are taking care of your farm for you, I’m taking care of Tee for you. You aren’t taking care of anything including yourself.”

“It’s too early in the morning to go into all that,” Travis ran his hands over his face.

“The day is half gone Travis, I am missing a wedding today that I wanted to attend because of you.”

“Hey I ain’t stopping you from going to weddings or anything else you want to do.”

“Yes you are, when your Dad told me about you yesterday I got so upset I couldn’t sleep last night. I had to come here this morning and try and talk some sense into you. I’m not going to sit by and let you destroy yourself. I’m not Travis…you’re too important to me.”

“It’s good to know I’m important to somebody,” he reached for a pack of cigarettes and lit one.

“You’re feeling sorry for yourself, that’s not like you Travis. You meet whatever comes at you head on and deal with it. You’ve never sat back and cried when things didn’t go your way. I know this divorce is a nasty business, I hate that it’s happening to you but you’ve got to pull yourself together and get on with it.”

“You don’t know what I feel, it’s like…I’ve been gutted. I loved her Mum and…I wasn’t enough for her.”

Sarah bit her tongue she couldn’t say what she wanted to about Jan, all that research she’d done before they married, she’d been right about her all along. She looked down at her hands. “Come home Travis, come home and heal, there’s work to be done on the farm, and people that need you there.”

Travis stubbed out his cigarette, “Okay, I will.” He swung his legs around and padded to the bathroom in his underwear. Sarah waited until she heard the water running in the shower and she slowly got up and left the bedroom.

She found Kyle in the lounge, “He’s coming home Kyle.”

“Best news I’ve heard lately, I’ll get his things together for him. Mrs. McGee, thanks.”

Sarah sighed and managed a small smile. She wandered around the lounge, it really was nice. She thought Tee might enjoy having a look at his uncle’s new toy. Finding a place to sit she waited for Travis, she didn’t entirely trust him to come home on his own.